Siblings Are The Forgotten Grievers

Siblings Are The Forgotten Grievers

Several times over the last year I have referenced my oldest daughter as the forgotten griever. Lately it’s been in my face. The idea haunts me. It shatters my heart into a million pieces.

When a child dies, the focus is always on the parents. Siblings become the forgotten grievers. We overlook the impact.

I have learned children don’t grieve the same way adults do. I have been told she will grieve throughout her life at various times and in different ways. As she gets older and begins to better understand what death means. When she hits milestones in her life and yearns to share them with him. When she sees other sisters with their brothers and anger takes over. The birth of her first child when she realizes what I lost, and then remembers what she lost. All a scratch on the surface of what is ahead for us.

Sibling Grief

Rarely she will provide a glimpse into her grief. One of those moments happened the other day. The baby woke up from a nap and I was changing her. Melia sat behind me. She simply said, “I am so happy Sienna is up from her nap. I just love my baby sister so much. We can play together now. I never thought I would ever have someone to play with again.” A raw, vulnerable statement. Subtle yet so profound for me. I had no idea that thought was inside of her.

From a common sense standpoint, I get it. He was her very best friend in this entire world. They spent hours playing together, exploring the world, giggling, fighting, and loving each other. She would walk into the room in a new dress and he would say, “Melia, you look so beautiful”. When she learned something new he would give her a high five and say, “Good job!” He was her biggest fan. Every memory from her life contained him. Then he is just gone. Not even a good bye.

We assume because she doesn’t grieve like us she is OK. She is just a kid so she doesn’t understand. I don’t agree!

With each glimpse we get, people ask how we can bear to witness it. How our hearts can handle the pain. Our only answer is “this is our new normal”. This is life after.

Lately, I have spent some time looking for sibling grief resources. Mostly in an attempt to understand it better. My worry is we are missing signs. We simply don’t know what we don’t know. Over and over I find people saying there aren’t many resources that exist. They are right.

For now, I watch. I have to continually remind myself that she was impacted. As the baby gets older she will follow her own path of grief. The learning curve may never end. The associated grief won’t either. So I make a conscious effort to remember our forgotten grievers.

 

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Comments ( 3 )
  1. Cora
    January 13, 2017 at 2:49 PM
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    I am so glad that you are aware and ready to support your forgotten grievers. I couldn’t imagine what life would have been if I had lost my big brother who I admired more than anything else in the world. Thanks for your honesty about this reality.

  2. Jay
    January 20, 2017 at 5:39 PM
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    I have a 3 year old daughter who is also grieving the loss of her big brother and best friend. Zion passed away at 4 years old (6months ago) from a terribly aggressive brain tumor. They were born 18months apart and like you said all of her memories are intertwined with her big brother. I have thought much about what her life experience will be like in light of loss. She gives us glimpses of her grief several times a day. It’s hard breaking and yet so precious. Thank you for putting yourself out there. I will start following.

    • Emily Graham
      Emily Graham
      January 20, 2017 at 11:36 PM
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      That breaks my heart to hear. These poor kids are forced to learn about death at such a young age. Then to have it happen to a person that their entire life revolved around is just heart breaking. It is hard enough processing it all as an adult. Trying to help them manage their grief without really knowing what to expect is a challenge. Thanks for stopping by and sharing. Good luck to you. XO

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