Pennies From Heaven – It’s Not Just A Story

signs from heaven

Everyone has heard the concept of “pennies from heaven”. There is a saying that when a loved one misses you, they toss a penny down from heaven. While a mere coincidence to some, others see a synchronicity that just makes sense. Before my 7-year old son died, I believed in signs sent from the other side. However, looking back I didn’t … Read More

The Best Friend I Never Met

bereaved mother bond

I never expected to bond with a woman I never met. The entire idea seems a little crazy. However, if there is one thing I’ve learned on this grief journey it is that nothing is crazy! In the worst moments of your life, you always imagine family and friends will be the ones to lift you up. After all, they know … Read More

Kids Birthday Parties Suck

birthdays after death of a loved one

When your child dies, you understand how much kids birthday parties suck. I’m not necessarily just talking about other people’s kids birthdays. Your own kids birthdays are equally crappy. It is as if someone repeatedly stabs you in the heart all day. Constant reminders of what you had, what you are missing, and what will never be. It is no wonder … Read More

The Advice I Wish I Got After My Son Died

when my son died

When my son died, I received a lot of advice. I found people do not know what to say. They default to the things they have been conditioned to say during these times. It came from many different sources, most of which had never lost a child. The advice came from good intentions, but it was hollow. Not at all … Read More

Bereaved Mothers: The Concept of Strength

strength

There is a quote that says, “The bereaved mother. She has experienced the unimaginable and yet she is still able to walk.” When I see it, I question the definition of strength. There is this notion that because we can get out of bed every day, we are strong. The ability to do the necessities life has demanded means we … Read More

How To Find A Medium Or Psychic Medium

psychic medium readings

I have had so many people ask me how to find a medium. They have either heard me talk about my experience or read my blog post about using medium readings to heal grief. Their first question is always, “How did you find a medium?” Most people have thought about it, but they have no idea where to start. I like … Read More

When Life Has you Feeling Overwhelmed

child loss and grief

Life has a way of leaving you feeling overwhelmed. Things are going along like normal (new normal anyway) and bam! Out of nowhere it hits you. How did this happen? I think it happened when I walked away from the second mess of the day. I say I think because I really can’t remember. My ability to focus on things … Read More

6 Things I’ve Learned About Sibling Grief

loss of a sibling

There aren’t many resources that exist related to sibling grief. This fact has caused me to begin my own research. Who better to ask than those that have experienced this heartbreak first hand. The forgotten grievers themselves. While each has had their own journey, many themes stand out. I am a big believer in the statement, “You don’t know what … Read More

What Is Better than Flowers? Food For Sick & Bereavement Gifts

Recipes to take to bereaved families.

Bereavement gifts are never an easy thing. People automatically default to flowers. While the flowers were beautiful, I have to say during the loss of our child, food by far made the biggest impact to our days. It was the most helpful thing we received. We ended up with a freezer stocked full of meals. There was no prep work … Read More

Our Diagnosis – Into The Unknown – Porphyria 101

Our Porphyria Diagnosis

Porphyria has come to mean a lot of things. I hold a piece of paper that tells me it is the reason my 7-year old son died. DNA testing tells me everyone in my family has it. When I speak with doctors, there is either confusion or questions. Most tell me they can’t believe our story because, “people don’t die … Read More