Today is the 25th. It is exactly 4-months from one of the worst days of my life. I say “one of” because even though it was the day we were told Cameron wouldn’t make it, the day we had to make the decision to sign a DNR and unplug our son, it still wasn’t as bad as the following day. Waking up, knowing that yesterday was the last day I would ever see him again. Hold him. That was so much worse!
I don’t normally like to put “Cameron” posts so close to each other. I figure most people probably like a break from the sad, depressing subject. However, today I’m making an exception. Today I want to share a little bit of him.
I’ve been going through all of Cameron’s old photos. It amazes me how a photo can literally take you back to the exact moment it was taken. It’s like I am actually standing there, seeing it again. I remember each one so vividly like it was yesterday. It makes me wish I had taken more (and I took a lot of photos). The importance of those photos right now is beyond value (unless you count the actual value of printing around 500 of them so I could hold them in my hand…I swear I’m not crazy). So here are just a few.
Music has that same ability. It unleashes memories and emotions that you didn’t know you had. OK so I knew I had them, I just preferred to keep them locked away.
There are a few songs that will always instantly make me think of Cameron. The lyrics just say it perfectly. One of those is Photograph by Ed Sheeran. So I thought I would share the lyrics that really get me. It’s like they were written for us. I long for the day our eyes meet again. Miss you Bud!
We keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
And time’s forever frozen still
Inside the pocket of your ripped jeans
Holding me closer ’til our eyes meet
You won’t ever be alone, wait for me to come home