Today is the 25th. It is exactly 4-months from one of the worst days of my life. I say “one of” because even though it was the day we were told Cameron wouldn’t make it, the day we had to make the decision to sign a DNR and unplug our son, it still wasn’t as bad as the following day. Waking up, knowing that yesterday was the last day I would ever see him again. Hold him. That was so much worse!

I don’t normally like to put “Cameron” posts so close to each other. I figure most people probably like a break from the sad, depressing subject. However, today I’m making an exception. Today I want to share a little bit of him.

I’ve been going through all of Cameron’s old photos. It amazes me how a photo can literally take you back to the exact moment it was taken. It’s like I am actually standing there, seeing it again. I remember each one so vividly like it was yesterday. It makes me wish I had taken more (and I took a lot of photos). The importance of those photos right now is beyond value (unless you count the actual value of printing around 500 of them so I could hold them in my hand…I swear I’m not crazy). So here are just a few.

Music has that same ability. It unleashes memories and emotions that you didn’t know you had. OK so I knew I had them, I just preferred to keep them locked away.

There are a few songs that will always instantly make me think of Cameron. The lyrics just say it perfectly. One of those is Photograph by Ed Sheeran. So I thought I would share the lyrics that really get me. It’s like they were written for us. I long for the day our eyes meet again. Miss you Bud!

We keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
And time’s forever frozen still