21 Things I Learned In Our First Year Of Loss

We have officially survived our first year of loss. I’m not really sure how. It doesn’t seem possible to be standing where we are today. I still wish I would wake up and have it all be a nightmare. Through this journey we have received a lot of advice. Nothing really prepares you. You simply learn to find comfort in … Read More

Thank You PBS For Making Me Cry

It’s unexpected. I’m standing at the sink rinsing dishes, loading the dishwasher. There is nothing special about this moment. It’s something I do all the time. My mind is filled with normal thoughts. I need to go out and bring the trash cans back in so we can take out the recycling. Grocery lists. Did I start the crock pot … Read More

Grief Where You Least Expect It

Grief is a funny thing. It shows up in moments that you least expect. Rears it’s ugly head as a way to remind you that life isn’t what it used to be. Nowhere is safe. It’s always there, just under the surface. Waiting. On this day it happened during the mundane. I stopped to get the mail as we always … Read More

Child Loss: It Can Happen To You

Today my phone rang. It was the Principal of my daughter’s school. “How strange!”, I thought, “It’s Saturday.” As my mind started running through the list of reasons for her call, it was stopped short. My heart dropped into my stomach. She apologized and told me this was a conversation she would prefer to be having in person. However, timing … Read More

Healing Grief Through Medium Readings

I have always believed in mediums. People with the ability to talk to the dead. Call me crazy if you like. Before Cameron died last December, I never had a reason to test those beliefs. It’s all I’ve done these last 9 months…test. There is not a person in this world that can shake my belief now! Let me start by … Read More

Planning Our Next Milestone – Cameron’s Birthday

My heart has been heavy these last couple of weeks. September means a new milestone. A big one. Cameron’s birthday. He would have been 8 this year. I’m calling it 8/1 to note his first on the other side. How I wish more than anything that I had an almost 8 year old here! We would have been picking out a … Read More

One Of Those Days – Depression After Child Loss

As the baby squealed to life, I knew today was one of those days. Since Cameron died, they’ve become a staple. Early on it was most days. Now, maybe once a week or so. There’s no warning signs or way of knowing. They just come and go as they wish. To say I’m exhausted is an understatement. I’m always tired! … Read More

7 Things Bereaved Parents Want You To Know

I am part of the Bereaved Parents Club. It’s a club that no one chooses to be a part of. One that, unfortunately, has too many members and continues to grow. My membership tells the world that I somehow survived every parent’s worst nightmare, the death of my child. What I have learned is that bereaved parents have an instant bond. Regardless of … Read More

Our Story Of Loss (Continued) – Guest Post From My Husband

I’m featuring a guest post from my husband, David. As we continue to tell our story of loss, it only makes sense that the next part be told by him. Every parent knows the feeling of guilt. That feeling gets magnified when your child is hurt or dies. This is a glimpse into some of what we’ve been dealing with lately. … Read More

Surviving the Loss of a Child

Surviving the loss of a child is the single most difficult thing I’ve ever had to do. It’s all I do. From the moment I open my eyes in the morning, every thing reminds me of him. The huge void that fills my daily life where he once was. Our jokes, his hugs, the video games, his favorite food, songs he … Read More