Grief Where You Least Expect It

Grief is a funny thing. It shows up in moments that you least expect. Rears it’s ugly head as a way to remind you that life isn’t what it used to be. Nowhere is safe. It’s always there, just under the surface. Waiting. On this day it happened during the mundane. I stopped to get the mail as we always … Read More

My Orange Moon – Messages From Heaven

Have you ever seen an orange moon? Hang out at my house and I bet the frequency increases. That’s my reality. Here’s how it all started. The night before Cameron’s memorial, a few of us stood out by the pool. I had taken the dog out. My daughter wanted to “help”. My Mom joined, I think mostly to get out … Read More

Child Loss: It Can Happen To You

Today my phone rang. It was the Principal of my daughter’s school. “How strange!”, I thought, “It’s Saturday.” As my mind started running through the list of reasons for her call, it was stopped short. My heart dropped into my stomach. She apologized and told me this was a conversation she would prefer to be having in person. However, timing … Read More

Healing Grief Through Medium Readings

I have always believed in mediums. People with the ability to talk to the dead. Call me crazy if you like. Before Cameron died last December, I never had a reason to test those beliefs. It’s all I’ve done these last 9 months…test. There is not a person in this world that can shake my belief now! Let me start by … Read More

Planning Our Next Milestone – Cameron’s Birthday

My heart has been heavy these last couple of weeks. September means a new milestone. A big one. Cameron’s birthday. He would have been 8 this year. I’m calling it 8/1 to note his first on the other side. How I wish more than anything that I had an almost 8 year old here! We would have been picking out a … Read More

One Of Those Days – Depression After Child Loss

As the baby squealed to life, I knew today was one of those days. Since Cameron died, they’ve become a staple. Early on it was most days. Now, maybe once a week or so. There’s no warning signs or way of knowing. They just come and go as they wish. To say I’m exhausted is an understatement. I’m always tired! … Read More

7 Things Bereaved Parents Want You To Know

I am part of the Bereaved Parents Club. It’s a club that no one chooses to be a part of. One that, unfortunately, has too many members and continues to grow. My membership tells the world that I somehow survived every parent’s worst nightmare, the death of my child. What I have learned is that bereaved parents have an instant bond. Regardless of … Read More

Surviving the Loss of a Child

Surviving the loss of a child is the single most difficult thing I’ve ever had to do. It’s all I do. From the moment I open my eyes in the morning, every thing reminds me of him. The huge void that fills my daily life where he once was. Our jokes, his hugs, the video games, his favorite food, songs he … Read More

How Has It Been 4-Months?

Today is the 25th. It is exactly 4-months from one of the worst days of my life. I say “one of” because even though it was the day we were told Cameron wouldn’t make it, the day we had to make the decision to sign a DNR and unplug our son, it still wasn’t as bad as the following day. Waking up, knowing that yesterday was … Read More